So, today I thought that I'd try this blogging thing and see what comes of it.

I've been speaking with a few of my friends, and have realised that if I ever wanted to get over my fear of writing, I'm going to have to actually write.  This seems like the best place to put what I have to say out there, with a fair degree of being able to hide, yet hopefully a place where someone will take an interest and shoot back at me from the hip, 'tho I can't guarantee that I won't take it badly.

Why do I want this space?  The point is more that I want a space.  I live in a crowded, anonymous city, where I struggle to have a clear head, and I'm hoping that I start to feel more human by giving myself this space to breathe, to mull things over, to soundboard, to figure out some definitive things about things.  I'm hoping that I find a community here, one that I don't have to belong to, but, if I happen to become part of, then I can feel accepted by.  The blindness of a computer screen hiding the insecurities of new people, so that somewhere along the line we all get to say what we really want to - me included.

I've just deleted some rubbish about being a newbie.  I can't bring myself to make any other comment about it.   Welcome to my paranoid state of mind.